22 September 2022

“And so, such history as my family has is the history of its life here. All that any of us may know of ourselves is to be known in relation to this place. And since I did most of my growing up here, and have had most of my most meaningful experiences here, the place and the history, for me, have been inseparable, and there is a sense in which my own life is inseparable from the history and the place. It is a complex inheritance, and I have been both enriched and bewildered by it”

Wendell Berry, A Native Hill.

13. At the end of the long gravel lane stands my grandfather’s cottonwood tree. You can see it to the south from the farmhouse. It stands alone. Solitary. Wandering in place against the horizon.
14. I count myself lucky. Fortunate. To sit among the trees. I sense a welcome. A steadfastness and peace. A determination to love through it all and to the end.
15. Is belovedness really sufficient? For the millionth time I wonder. Isn’t there something else I should be doing? Isn’t there someone else I should be? Are you sure? This can’t be enough. But your welcome of love reassures me for the millionth time. The wonder. Your embrace.

First posted on Substack